Boys, boys, all types of boys - black, white, Puerto Rican, Chinese boys.

I love Missy Elliot.  Hence the title of this post.  But, I love sexy men more than I love Missy Elliot.

Today I have not been feeling very good.  So, I was laying on the couch switching between Keeping Up With the Kardashians (don't judge me!) and The Daily Show thinking to myself "Man, John Stewart is so sexy." and "Jeebus, Scott Disick is so sexy!"

So, I thought I would write a little post about my top three celebrity crushes.

3.) Scott Disick
He's sharp, he's sophisticated, he's the mediator in all catty sister bitch fights.  And dammit, he's just so damn dapper.

Grrowwl.  Look at those loafers!

2.) John Stewart.  mmm  Do I really have to explain myself on this one?  He's handsome, educated, charming and most importantly, HILARIOUS.

1.) Drum roll please...the man of my dreams....the apple of my eye.  Mr. Tom Hanks.  When I tell my friends how in love with this man I actually am, most of them cringe.  I don't get it.  He's not the most symmetrical looking person, but he's so damn cute.  He's so damn charming.  Shit, he can make you cry over a freaking volleyball.  Have you seen him in You've Got Mail?!?!  "Don't cry shopgirl, don't cry."  Ahlawd have mercy on me.  He makes me melt.

There you have it.  You can't sit there and tell me you don't have a mad crush on Heath Ledger or the Hanson Brothers....I mean, Jake Gyllenhaal.  Just because you have a husband/boyfriend doesn't mean you have completely lost your eyesight.  Believe me, your husband/boyfriend has a crush on Mila Kunis or Natalie Portman. BET!

C'mon, tell me - who's your celebrity crush?

I have to go watch You've Got Mail now.

Love you!

Sometimes you just gotta whine.

I know I said that I would try to be more positive.  But sometimes the bad just comes out.

I know none of this is oh so awful, but today I couldn't help but dwell on the things I wish I had...or things I wish were different for me.

I've decided to just bitch it out on here, so I can get it out of my system and start to feel better again.

I wish I wasn't so poor.  And by poor, I mean poor by American standards.  I know I should be thankful for the life I have, but sometimes, living in this country, being the bottom rung...it is really really hard.  Like, when you realize you have to apply for Food Stamps...but you know they probably won't accept you because you make minimum wage and apparently that is too much.
Or when you can tell the radiator on your 4th piece of shit car is going to go out this summer, and you know there's no way in fucking hell you're going to have the money.
Or when you just want to fly to Portland to see your two best friends, but you think you should probably spend your school money on that radiator, so you'll have a way to get to work and maybe stay afloat.

It's instances like those stated above that make me really hate my dad for dying.  That sounds really fucking selfish, I know...and as if he had a say in the matter.. I KNOW.  But its fucking hard sometimes.  And its not even about the money.  Sometimes I just need some advice...some of whatever dad's do.  I don't even remember what that is...

And on top of it all, I've such a worry-wort that these things send me down a spiraling oblivion of crazy mind-numbing shit.

Sometimes do you ever feel like someone is being something they don't necessarily want to be, FOR YOU?  I feel that way.  I don't want to be that person.  I don't want to force someone to be something they're not.

So, if shit didn't get too personal for you, I applaud your patience.
And I know I KNOW,  things will get better, everything happens for a reason blah blah.

SOMETIMES you just gotta get the shit OUT....in order to let some good stuff in.

Thanks for listening loves, and I promise to keep it more positive...and I promise to stop cussing like a sailor.

I just really needed to talk.


Love you.

Ten Things.

I have decided to be a tad bit more positive lately.  Every Monday or Tuesday, I'll post ten things I'm really super happy about, or things I love.
We'll see how this works out.....

1)

This guy.  He's generally a pain in the ass, but most times he can be pretty sweet and lovable.

2) A great man that teaches me love, patience, curiosity and understanding every day.

3) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs&noredirect=1

This woman in this video.  I will never know her, but she changed my life.  And she's so damn cute!

4) My Morning Jacket. 

5) My engineering class.  My professor jumped back when I told him I wanted to be an Environmental Engineer...and then we bonded over our Volvos.  Cute.

6) This little squirt.  He's really sassy and super freaking cute.  He's my nephew and I sure do like him a lot lately.  He really knows how to make a girl laugh.  Watch out ladies.

7) Spending time with Katie Noel Cantrell.  I missed her.

8) Spending time with myself.  I missed her.

9) My semi clean house.  Its really nice...and it smells good too!

10) Right now, I'm loving my cat batting a cigarette butt ALL over the house.  

Fucking weirdo.  Oh crap now its in my shoes.....

Love you.